own experience has shown that you can survive
after going through terrible times at home
and I give my utmost support to those women
and young people living with the threat
of domestic abuse... Don't suffer in silence
because help is out there.
a while it was to the point that I was losing
my voice and I thought I was going to have
to be hospitalized if I kept working myself
into the ground. I ended up getting really
introverted. I wasn't happy. But nobody
knows what's really going on. I need to
eat, I need to sleep, and sometimes those
things weren't considered. It was like,
'When do you think I'll have time to go
to the bathroom?' That wasn't on the schedule.
felt trapped. I was under the thumb of people
who were mostly interested in keeping me
doing exactly the same thing. But Im
not blaming anyone. You learn fast in this
business and, once I knew where I wanted
to go, I didnt let anyone get in my
a long time, Id been uncomfortable
with the image that had been built around
me and my music. It felt like I was pretending,
trying to hide the real me, and hurting
inside because of it. This time I was determined
to step beyond the hype and glitter, to
take it back down to the bare necessities.
It was like starting all over again..
all been living in denial about it, but
now it's starting
to sink in and it's very upsetting.
As we count down to the last three episodes,
it's getting harder
and harder to read the lines, do the scenes,
without one of us breaking down in tears.
And I have to admit, I'm a pretty emotional
person and I'm probably taking this harder
than the others. This has been my family
for ten years and now suddenly I'm wondering
is going to be like without that closeness.
comes from setting myself
huge, apparently unachievable
and trying to rise above them.
is to understand
the psyche of somebody like that. There
is no true genius
or revolutionary ideas,
I dont think, without some element
of compulsiveness or madness
or obsession, and thats certainly
indicative of Howard Hughes. Understanding
his obsessive-compulsive disorder was really
the key for me for opening up who this man
in the beginning, it was really tough.
Coming from Cincinnati, Ohio, I was just
who had a dream,
which was to go to Los
Angeles, have a career
and to be able to support
To have a dream like that and, you know,
you're not ready for what's coming ahead.
I think that's just a part of being famous,
and something you learn
has been through some sh*t, whether it's
drastic or not so drastic. Everybody gets
to the point of 'I don't give a f**k.'
always been interested in singing
and I've always been singing and dancing
since I was little. It's hard
right now, because there are a lot of other
girls coming out. ...I don't want to just
be one in the pack. I want to separate myself.
I tend to like slightly darker things --
have levelled that on me before and I accept
that because in my opinion, if I mention
best books, there's always something
that's involving slightly darker element
of out psyche. I like seeing people under
I like seeing what happens to people when
they're under pressure.
It's been very tough. It's been two years
of sacrifice. But now it's over. It's done.
I've had a couple of muscular problems,
yes, but regular, normal stuff. The serious
injury has been defeated. I am ready to
was very disappointed to lose my bet with
the boss. But we will be having another
bet this season and I know I'm going to
win this time. Scoring goals is a great
feeling, but the most important thing to
me is that the team is successful - it doesn't
matter who scores the goals as long as we're
hardly stopped in these past few months.
I've been doing two training sessions a
day - morning and afternoon - which is quite
an achievement, and it has been no problem.
It's been so great to kick a ball around
again - I've missed it so much. I can now
kick a ball reasonably gently and I've been
able to take part in some little games,
just kickabouts between friends, like you
do when you're a kid - two against two,
three against three, that sort of thing.
They know not to touch me, and that they
have to let me score!
play such a huge amount nowadays. So many
championships, so many games. And you get
so many more injuries. But, well...there
you are. That's the way it is. We have to
make the best of what we have.
have made the tough
always with an eye toward the bottom line.
Perhaps it's time
was run like a business.